lilybean666

Life as it is today not yesterday

2008-11-09T20:47:53Z

Life has changed alot for me since my last post on here. I have now been dating my boyfriend for 4 months. We have had to deal with a lot of back lash more so from my friends then his bc I haven't hidden the fact the I meet him at my night job. We were friends for a long time b4 anything ever happened between us. I have gotten to know his family some what and as of Thanksgiving I get to meet his moms entire side of the family ( I think I'm gonna die but thats just me from nerves.) We spend most of our time curlded up at home together its nice to not worry about the outside world.

I have also recently started to reconnect with some old friends and get to know them as they are now and not as they once were. They are trying to do the same with me. It will take time and patience for it to work but it seems as thought things are on the right path. I only see things as the come anymore I nolnger plan things for the future enless its a trip and even those dont always get planned.

My sister is about to have her first baby. She had slight contractions last night but told me to stay put and they have stopped. She has decided that little Elizabeth is waiting for her aunt to get there b4 she breaks into the world. I cant wait to see that little face and to lay there next to my sister and marvel at what she and her husband have created. She is going to be so beautiful. Well i'm off to spend a little more time with Tom b4 I head to work I am headed north as soon as I get off work at 2:30 in the morning.

Next time I post I will be a aunt. Wow!!!!

close minded people

2008-09-15T18:10:37Z

Some people are so fucking close minded to see whats in front of their fucking face. Just bc someone moves on they decide they have to be a jerk. yes i cant understand them being hurt to a point but to just say things like "i was never more then a fuck buddy" aas if thats how i treated them and just dimenished any feeling i oncce had for them fuck that shit i will not have people in my life like that . So those people need to grow the fuck up about certain situations instead of acting like a fucking child. GGGGGGGGGRRRRRR some I swear

life is good

2008-09-06T17:37:09Z

Ok so here is a update on life peeps. I have Been dating a wonderful man for two months now. Dont get me wrong he has his faults but we all do he treats me well and we have a good time whenever we are with each other. He doesnt judge me for what I do or have any problems with it he sees it as a job nothing more. I meet his family last night and they welcomed me with open arms. That was fun and interesting.

I will also be going to Purto Rico after the new year with my friend Bones I have already discussed it with Tom and he is completely ok with ithe trusts me and i him. So thats all i have to say for now catch you later Lily.

update since i havent written in awhile

2008-07-18T18:04:01Z

There have been a lot of changes some more recent then other i am now kinda seeing someone he has been a friend of mine for a year and a half. He is the first man i have dated that has been a friend frist a lover second he meets ever requirement I could want in a man for me he is protective and strong yet gives me my space and isnt up my ass crack 24/7 which means i might actually keep him around and he is far enough away that i dont have to be running into when i dont want to see him but close enough that when i want to see him its not that far of a drive. Some how or another he always knows how to say the right thing to make me smile i just hope my friends will be happy for me.

I am gearing up for my trip to pensic which is going to be great im going to have so much fun and get away from everything in nc for a full two weeks can you believe it this is the longest time period that i will be gone from everything since i was 15 i cant wait im so exicited. and i get to see my family and actually be awake to enjoy it this is going to be wonderful i need this trip more then anyone will ever know and to my family im coming home yes oh have i said i cant wait if so im saying it again.

thus is all the update your going to get for now ha later

Promotion

2008-01-20T18:06:00Z

All right so i tried to wait as long as I could to post this because there were a few people i want ed to talk to to tell but since i havent heard from them i have given up and so fuck it Im going to go a head and post it. I am now the offical assitant manager at Raleigh Takeout. I have been acting as the unofficial for about a month and a half and as of a week ago it was made official. so for people who doubt my skills this is a big fuck u to them.

Otherwise life is good Im entering the dating word again for the first time in a long time. I have casually dated a few people over the last year I think im finally ready for serious dating again it took me a year and a half to get to this point but Im finally confident that Im ready to enter that world again. I have finally got the rest of my life together now its time to find someone to share it with so wish me luck in this bye guys

irritated

2007-11-29T17:35:48Z

i am tired of those fake ass people who say they are you friend but never call you never talk to you and yet tell every one that they are you best friend. that is pure and uter bulshit.

This rant is due to the fact i am tried of people bitching that we dont make time for them but when the shoe is on the other foot its ok but yet if they feel left out its ok for them to act stupid i have one thing to say to people like that
SUCK it up and stop bitching not everyone has the time to be there 24 7 and if your going to bitch about people not being around maybe just maybe you need to point that finger back at yourself.

so this is your wake up call be there or not make the choice but you cant play both sides of the field
thus ending my rant

i think to much like a guy sometimes i swear

moving

2007-10-17T15:37:08Z

alright so im moving into my new apt friday i am putting my shit in storage tonight and will be staying at my home girls house til friday when i move in if anyone wishes to help i would love it wink wink but there is my update

so my bday this year

2007-09-21T02:20:14Z

alright everyone has been asking what my plans are for my bday this year here it is as follows

the 30th i will be at legends for a girls night out with a bunch of the girls i work with

then oct. 1st i will be at legends again with my friends for goth night

there it is guys and girls so come out and play make this year as good as last year

whats been up

2007-09-04T07:15:02Z

alright so i know ive been working alot much to my friends dismay bc i havent been around a whole lot but im back as much as possible now i will be doing the best i can to keep up with people but i make no promises bc my life is crazy right now with everything going on weddings to go to people to see and friends to hang out with what few time i have that im not working or sleeping. but peeps give me a shout and i will do what i can to be around for whatever is going on

irritated

2007-08-13T20:17:56Z

I am tired of double standards. Everytime i turn around they are being used. I am of the opinon that if you want people to open up to you then you should be willing to do them same.Not shut them out everytime they try to be there for you. So fuck it if you cant give what you want in return then dont ask for it. Because from now on if your not willing to give what you ask for then your not going to get it.
thus ends my rant

Back in NC

2007-08-11T21:54:44Z

I have now been back in nc for not quite a week and this is the first chance I've had to write.I enjoyed my trip up north i got to spend a lot of time with a friend of mine and on the way back i stopped over to see my family which made me really happy i hadnt seen some of them for a long time. I cant wait to see them again whan i get to go home towards the end of september. i will get to be home for 4 days i plan on seeing a lot of my family and friends especially my best friend Janelle. i havent seen her in over a year i cant wait.
But yes the Lily is back in nc grr didnt want to come back but i missed my friends. i dont have much time left here so i will make use of it. then i will be saying goodbye nc then you will have to travel to see me ha.

trip

2007-06-28T21:18:23Z

i am currently in tulsa oaklahoma enjoying my trip so far it is a little weird though my ex-husband is here which already made me nervous bc i havent seen him in almost 2 yrs so to make it even worst his new girlfriend was coming to but thats not all she is 7months pregnent with twins and there his so yeah talk about unnerved will they are now here and all is well i am getting to know Kristen and i like her she is really cool and karl is the same as ever so i know how to deal with him so i am getting on quite nicely now i miss you all i will write again soon by guys

my sister

2007-05-14T04:24:31Z

For those of you that dont know i have a twin sister her name is marian. She arrived in raleigh on fridaay and suprized me at work with my mom everyone knew she was coming but me. grrrr!!!!! but i will be bring her with me to legends on monday and aries on wednesday so come out and say hi bc otherwise most of the week i will be spending all of my free time with her i havent seen her in 8 monthsand as much as i hate to addmit it i missed her. Her being here is like a small tast of home and that makes me very very happy.

hate

2007-05-02T17:18:04Z

I am sick of this fucking war over sea i am tired of my friends lives being put in danger on a daily bases. People say that this war is pointless they have no idea everyday my loved one are put in danger and by the grace of the gods they are able to come home safe at least most of them. People know what they are getting into when they marry into this life but they never think to ask what the children feel that are rasied in this life style. We dont get to choose it is apart of us from birth we are breed to know this life style. We are expected to except that its normal and we are forced to grow up a lot quicker then the rest of the world. We are the ones whos loved ones are put in danger on every fucking day bases. You see it as they are heros all we see is our mothers and fathers or brothers. sisters, cousins and the list goes on so the next time i hear anyone so something stupid like we need to be over there. man fuck that we want our familys home. No if and or buts about.

weirdness

2007-04-24T03:07:49Z

I have now joined the lj world crazy right. but whatever I do what I want and those of you who dont like it tuff shit then dont fucking read it. I am a woman who likes what i want and usually gets it. One way or another But I am a true friend. once i care for you then its for life. I dont believe in crying or showing whats going on inside to open up and to cry shows weakness I hate weakness. I am the rock that will almost never break thats just how it is. love me hate me the choice is yours i will never change who i am for someone else